8 weeks

So Its been 8 weeks since I decided to try to lose weight. At first all I did was walk 2 miles a day. I did that for 2 - 3 weeks. I wasn't losing anything really. I realized that in order to lose the weight I wanted to I NEEDED to step up my game. So that's what Ive done! I joined Golds Gym. I actually really like working out! NEVER thought I would say that! ha ha :) But I do! I try to go to the gym 6 days a week. I usually stay for no more than 1 hr. That's how long Maddie can stay in the childcare. Which by the way she HATES! :( oh well.... She'll learn to love it the way I do. My good girlfriend Rachel got me interested in the gym and working out. Thank God for her! :) So I love the elliptical machine. That's my FAV!  I also enjoy doing weight training. I'm thinking about maybe taking a class?! Maybe one day. For now I love what I got going on. It feels sooo good to feel beautiful again. For the record Ive lost 16 pounds and lost 3-4 inches in my belly. I'm soo happy. I have a lot more weight to lose but I'm happy already. I cant wait to see how it feels when I can say I lost another 15! :)

Big Girl

Love that lil face! Wow.... my baby has turned into such a BIG GIRL! Time flies Almost 14 months

Im proud

Well its been 2 weeks since I have decided to change my life forever. I'm proud to say I'm sticking to my words. I have been eating much better. I also have been walking 2 times a day. Also following a 1 year old around all day! ha.... That's a workout in itself!! Anyways....down 7 pounds! Yay for me! Ive got a long way to go! But I'm doing it!! I'm feeling so much better.... :) Hopefully next time I will say lots and lots of weight just fell off! Im so PrOuD of myself!

my thoughts....

                       Let me just start out by saying.... I'm ready to change! I'm have been battling my weight issues for well like forever! Especially this last year. After I had Madelyn. I didn't go on a diet or exercise like most pregnant women do. I KNOW what happened was this: I had gestational diabetes when I was pregnant. I wasn't allowed to have sugar at all. I wasn't allowed to eat anything I wanted. I had to monitor my sugar intake 4 times a day. That was hard as hell. I did it of course with no questions asked! But after I had the baby I was able to eat anything I wanted. So I did. I'm not beating around the bush on this. ha ha. I did eat anything. I wanted too! I mean I didn't like eat an entire carton of ice cream in one sitting... haha! I just didn't diet. I am the kind of person I can talk about doing something till the cows come home. But actually doing it that can be a long process. I have talked about how much I hate the way I look for the last year all the time. However I NEVER did anything about it. Unfortunately, I wasn't born with the skinny gene. :( If I wanna look good I need to eat right and exercise. It is not a easy thing for me. I know I have to do this. I'm soooooo ready to start to feel good again. I wanna be proud of the way I look. If I feel like I look good then I will feel better. I wanna feel sexy ;)

                               I had have a hard time excepting my "mama body" Having a c-section really changes your body. Having to have my muscles cut through was not easy. My belly will never be the same. I'm learning in time that just by being a mother it makes me more beautiful than I ever was. This blog is not supposed to be a pity blog at all. Its just me expressing my biggest battle in life right now. In the beginning of this week. I have had a life changening moment. I have realized that I deserve to feel good about myself. Instead of just talking about it. But actually do something about it. I am the only person who can truly change me. I am ready. I am not doing anything severe. I don't do good at SUPER strict diets. So I'm not calling this a diet.. I'm just calling this a challenge to be healthy everyday. I need it. I want it. I never wanna be that mom. I don't wanna be able to not keep up with my daughter one day. I dont wanna get full blown diabetes as a older adult. I'm at greater risk. I wanna be healthy and feel good.  This past week I'm eating way better and exercising as often as possible. I'm ALREADY feeling better. It crazy how one day I just realized that I can do anything! I can lose the weight I want to. I'm the strongest person I know. I don't have a time line or a weight limit to reach.  But what I do have this time around is confidence in myself. I have confidence that I can do this and stick to it!

M & M

Yesterday Red came home with flowers for his girls! First time we ever both got them! Sooo pretty! xoxo

I survived!

                                So..... It's official I have survived my 1st hurricane! Hurricane Irene came to visit on friday night. I had been awaiting the arrival of "her" for about a week. Watching the news all the time. I became obsessed with checking the news. Always looking to see how fast it was or where its projected path was. I have lived here for the last 4 years and had never been in one before. I was overly strangely excited! Once I knew it was coming to NC I had to go to the madhouse.... WALMART! Maddie and I went on that wednesday before the storm. It seemed like everyone and their cousin was there. Damn... they were almost outta cases of water. They had no raviolis and almost outta bread. I thought OMG! I ended up stocking up. I bought steaks, chicken legs, Italian sausage, cheeseburgers. I figured I would wanna be eating good food on the grill if our power was gonna be out. Screw the raviolis! haha..... So friday daytime finally came. Red was sent home from work because of the storm. All kinds of businesses started preparing for the hurricane. Lots of cars headed outta town. Alot of places were closing early! Everyone trying to get home. Irene came into town early friday afternoon. I was excited to finally see some rain and clouds and WIND! What I realized is that a hurricane is a very long long long storm. Not everything happens all at once. We would get these wind bands....the trees would sway back and forth. It reminded my of pom-poms. I loved the sound. We would get rain on and off. Some hard rain some light rain. It was fun! Madelyn also had her first experience ;)

                                On friday night Red cooked us our steaks on the covered porch we have. We were set up! It felt like camping in the back yard. LOL. We put Mads to bed around 715ish. So for the rest of the evening we pretty much sat outside on the porch and just watched and listened to the storm. I defintly wanted to be outside for as long as I could. The worst part of the storm was gonna be between 2am-4am. Around 5am the power went out. Boooo! I woke up right away. Madelyn woke up right away. We were all up at 5am with candles lite and flash lights. It was kinda hard to play with Mads in the dark. With no cartoons!! We were stuck in the house for the next thousand hrs! We could only go on the porch. I was thankful for that! We even ended up eating steaks and eggs in the am on the grill. It was YUMMY! We played played played in the house all day! Trying to keep a baby entertained during a hurricane can become difficult! especially towards the end! NO TV or music. or even the option to play outside. We made lunch outside on the grill. I would say in the afternoon on Saturday Irene was finally slowing down some outside. People in my neighborhood started to go outside. We wanted to see if anything was broken. Or any trees where cracked in half.

                                       The neighborhood was a MESS! There were tree limbs everywhere! Pine cones
galore!!!! We went out on a bike ride! We wanted outta the house! We had to open the windows. It was starting to get hot in the house. So I know noticed.... All kinds of people have generators! I want a generator! If I'm gonna live in NC for the rest of my life I need a generator! haha. I was and still am jealous of anyone who has one! We had to go to my sister house for about 1 hr that day. So we could get the baby in the ac. She needed to cool off! So did I :)  I needed to charge my cell phone. The battery was dying right before my eyes. So went there! A few of us met up over there. It was nice! Auntie Jaymee never lost power!! LUCKY!!  Anyways it was time to head home. Mads needed dinner. We went back home to still NO POWER! I was very sad! We made dinner on the grill! As soon as we sat down to eat ..... The power came BACK ON!! So glad I can sleep with the ac on! Yay!! I was sooooo HaPpY! 14 hours of no power thats a plenty for me!! The hurricane was actually kinda fun in a way. Nothing was damaged! No one was hurt! We were all safe! Now I can write in Madelyn's baby book..... We went through our 1st hurricane together!!!  xoxo

Sweetest face!